Look here’s the story so far. Something in the universe (or that massive collection of connections in my brain) is conspiring to ensure I get a good swift punch between the eyes. It’s like that extra hard revving sound you get when you should change to a higher gear in the car. It is time to kick it up a notch, BAM!
A seesaw of events which would bore the tits off of you (but I will probably go into because I crave attention when I am feeling a bit under the weather) are all saying NOW, NOW, NOW!
“Now what?” you may ask, and it would be a valid question seeing as this blog has lay dormant for a while, and I have apparently been putting all of my energy into fighting the good fight against “the man” and “big business”, and losing miserably (miserable is DEFINITELY the right word).
Now is the time to get good. Not just good actually, now is the time to get fan-fucking-tastic and strive to be the best I can be.
“The best you can be at what?” you ask again if you have got this far.
The best I can be at making money from this whole online malarkey.
Up until now I have just wanted to be OK, comfortable, making just enough. Fuck that! All bets are off now, gloves are on, and any other sporting saying I can dredge up to indicate I am making a challenge to the world.
I have this little internal flaw quirk that is always craving to PROVE SOMETHING, probably to my father, it’s his voice I hear berating me sometimes for being lazy. For me nothing is ever good enough, no amazing result is ever satisfying; no triumph quells the flames of desire. Instead I set a higher bar and go for it.
Which really doesn’t fit in with what I have felt like, and accomplished, with my goals for an online income; a piece of the puzzle was missing and I knew something was uncomfortably wrong, but what was it? Was it fear? Was it something else?
I watched Seth Godin’s presentation at the 99% conference (and you should too!) and finally the neural pathway between three disparate areas of my brain became a single straight road from DESIRE ->EFFORT -> SUCCESS. Up until now I have been working with EFFORT + SUCCESS, but desire…. desire has been on a beach in the Bahamas. Actually when you watch Seth’s presentation you will know what has been happening with desire (hint: too many details kill my desire to do anything for any period of time… and guess which part of my brain starts throwing up details).
I am committing absolute and premeditated murder on a way of thinking. It is ugly, and bloody and there is a lot of screaming involved. This way of thinking is not going down without a fight, but it’s my success or it, and it is in the way. I am not fighting fair either, not even close to lady-like. I have my thumb in its eye up to the second knuckle and I am wriggling it around.
I have dusted off the blog as step one to shipping (need a container for your “stuff” when you ship) and there will be more posts of this type. Confronting? Maybe…
More later
Allison
Cue Gonna Fly Now (Bill Conti)
Planned and executed my exit from the corporate world. Walked away with a 6 figure payment to boot.
You go!! Glad you enjoyed that talk. It’s a definite kick in the pants for those open to it. Look for more on that topic next year from him. In an even more “make you uncomfortable with the way things are” way.